Assalamualaikum semuaaaaaaaaa.....
i think... i think la.. this will be a long post.. so.. get ready guys...pembebelan non stop akan bermula... gi la amik pape yg patut untuk dikunyah... and if you think I'm making you bored, sile bawa cursor anda ke top right, click the 'X'.. simple steps to minimize the risk of mata juling.. ehehehe
ok... so it all started when I got married with my then boyfriend on feb 2010. Of course we want kids right away. no planning whatsoever. just go with the flow. maka.. after 7 months kawen, still takde pape I decided to go have myself checked at klinik biase. So the doc advised buat pap smear to check if ade something wrong with my cervix ke ape. Alhamdulillah.. all clear.. no problemo la kirenye kan..
Going home, perasaan tenang skit.. so, keep on trying for the next 1 and a half year. Still takde pape. within that 1 and half year tu, orang kata pegi urut kat makcik tu, makcik ni, memang pegi je without hesitation. Suruh makan macam2 bende.. serbuk kurma la, buah zuriat la, jamu la, ehh.. macam2 la.. pening rasa mane satu nak ikut. Takde la I main follow je ape orang cakap kan. Tengok la jugak mana logic and mane tak. Mak mertua bawak gi berubat ngan ade sorang pakcik kt Slim River. Di suruhnye minum air kelapa and ragi ke ape tah namenye tu. minum je la kan.. seb baik air kelapa sedap. Tp without izin Allah, buat la ape pon, takkan jadi punya.
After that, I decided to go to Dr Hamid Arshad. This is around 2013 kalu tak silap. Sanggup tunggu turn tah pukul brape tah baru dpt jumpe die. Yang I ingat me and hubs sampai klinik die kul 8 pagi. And masa sampai tu, dah ramai rupenye hakak2 pregnant yg dah sesiap amik nombor... tah pukul brape la derg sampai. Dr Hamid, a very well known fertility doc. Die check, nothing yang mengganggu as in uterus sume ok.. No fibroid, no polips. Kirenye cantik la keadaannye. Die pn suh makan acid folic and kasi sepotong ayat Quran untuk di amalkan. Trus set next appointment, which is 3 bulan lagi . Ok I am not a very patient punya spesis.
I pon malas nak tunggu lama2. We went to a normal clinic and tell the doctor on my fertility issue. Doc tu pn referkan to his friend, which is a gynae at Columbia Asia Cheras. So, tanpa membuang masa, off we go to the hospital to set appointment. Sebab hospital baru masa tu, cepat je dpt appointment with Dr Shida. Die pn buat la segala scanning and checking and die pn mendiscover yang I ade PCOS (polycystic Ovary Syndrome). A condition where ovum tak matured due to hormon keperempuanan tak mencukupi. So when ovum tak matured, Ovum tu sume tak membesar. They just stayed in my ovary. Even I have my period every month, well ade la period but irregular. Kadang-kadang my cycle 35 days, sometimes 42 days, the longest is 63 days. Masa tu mcm perasan sgt pregnant. On day 62 I buat pregnancy test. Negative. The next day I period. FEELS LIKE !@#&^%^#&%*&.. At that point of time, I mmg rasa down sangat sangat sangat. I cried and cried and since then, ape ape news pasal people getting pregnant, konfem I nangis. I still remember, in the news btau pasal Blake Lively pregnant, I nangis gile babi. TAH PAPEEEEEE.. but I just cant help it. serius down. So, I pn stop segala treatment. Malas nak tertunggu2 lagi every month. I just remind myself, only Allah knows when we are truly ready and Allah takkan uji more than we can handle.
So idle phase ni berlaku sampai la end of 2016 when we decided, we need to get help and lets be serious about this. We cannot putus asa. We should terima what lies upon us. Stay positive. Keep on trying tak kisah la whatever it takes. Wahhh.. matured tak keputusan cmtu kan? Rase cam matured sangat time tu.. hahahahahahahahhaa.
So my aunt suggest to go to HUKM and get treatment with Prof Zainul. Sebab die pn have the same struggle and she feels that Prof Zainul is very capable. Kitorg pn pergi la register pape yg patut. Go through the same process mcm kt Columbia Asia Cheras dulu. Which is check ovum, check uterus, husband kene buat sperm test, I kene buat fallopian tube scan balik. Oooo.. talking about this fallopian tube scan. I have a very very very bad experience the first time I did this. I ingat lagi buat scan tu with a doctor at a clinic located at Jalan Raja Laut. The after effect of the scan gile dasyattttt.. I cannot get up for 2 days. Feels like ade tikus tengah dok korek2 my uterus.. sakit gileeeeeeeeeeeeeeee. So when HUKM suh I buat balik, rasa cam thats it. kite stop sampai sini je.. tanak buat dah.. tobat.. eceh... baru tadi feeling matured kan. I story kt aunt I bad experience of my 1st tube scan.. die kate die buat kt KPJ Tawakkal with Dr Fatimah. Takde rase sakit langsung. I'm a bit skeptical. Camne plak aku rase cam nak mampos, die takde rase pape.. So die pn ckp, pegi situ, serius takde rase sakit. I did went for the scan with Dr Fatimah tu. And to my surprise, sumpah takde rase sakit langsung. Trus rasa nak top up sumpah seranah kt doc clinik kt Raja Laut tu.. What de hell are u doing man???
Ok.. sambung balik treatment kt HUKM ni. fallopian tube takde sumbat ke ape.. so the problem now is memang due to the PCOS. PCOS ni takde cure and even docs pn tatau what cause it. But it can be controlled. By leading healthy lifestyle, jaga makan, jangan stress, kirenye lead a happy life la gitu and paling bagus if dpt reduce weight. Sikit reduce pn ok dah. So, cam biase doc akan kasi clomid. To simulate the ovum. Tgk if ade reaction. Alhamdulillah ade... ade la 1 ovum membesar. Doc pn kate try dulu naturally. 3 cycle la kirenye try naturally. Nothing. Takpe, lets ask the docs advise what should we do next. So doc kate bole proceed with IUI. Mase ni I dah start change my lifestyle. Petang2 after work g jog, lantak la keje siap ke tak.. Keje will not habis. Sayangilah diri anda.. gitu tagline masa ni. I joined Slim Fit season 4. The coach and the team is superb. Throughout the program, they taught us how to lead healthy lifestyle. Weight tak important. Important sebab nak win 1st place je mase tu.. hehehehehe.. So at the end of this program, we really know how to control our food intake, cmne nak workout dengan betul, about nutrition in our food and to love ourself as well as spreading the awareness to other people of the importance of taking care of yourself and feel good about yourself. Berjaya turunkan around 5kg rasenye. Memang rasa best sangat2.
So, then we did proceed with IUI. Excited gile masa ni mmg berangan trus pregnant la. But Allah knows best. Takde rezeki. Once dah period tu, doc pn tanya. Nak proceed with IUI lagi skali tak? I cakap No. Tak nak buang masa doing the same thing without knowing if my ovum is really a good ovum and if it can be fertilized naturally without any intervention. So I pn cakap nak proceed with IVF terus and Doc agreed.
Intermission... jeng jeng jengggg
Eh.. next post la ye.. penat plak menaip. Mata I plak nak juling. So before I pn maki diri sendri, I stop sini dulu ye. hahahahahha.. Nanti I sambung on this IVF in my next post.
Daaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa..
Signing Off
i think... i think la.. this will be a long post.. so.. get ready guys...pembebelan non stop akan bermula... gi la amik pape yg patut untuk dikunyah... and if you think I'm making you bored, sile bawa cursor anda ke top right, click the 'X'.. simple steps to minimize the risk of mata juling.. ehehehe
ok... so it all started when I got married with my then boyfriend on feb 2010. Of course we want kids right away. no planning whatsoever. just go with the flow. maka.. after 7 months kawen, still takde pape I decided to go have myself checked at klinik biase. So the doc advised buat pap smear to check if ade something wrong with my cervix ke ape. Alhamdulillah.. all clear.. no problemo la kirenye kan..
Going home, perasaan tenang skit.. so, keep on trying for the next 1 and a half year. Still takde pape. within that 1 and half year tu, orang kata pegi urut kat makcik tu, makcik ni, memang pegi je without hesitation. Suruh makan macam2 bende.. serbuk kurma la, buah zuriat la, jamu la, ehh.. macam2 la.. pening rasa mane satu nak ikut. Takde la I main follow je ape orang cakap kan. Tengok la jugak mana logic and mane tak. Mak mertua bawak gi berubat ngan ade sorang pakcik kt Slim River. Di suruhnye minum air kelapa and ragi ke ape tah namenye tu. minum je la kan.. seb baik air kelapa sedap. Tp without izin Allah, buat la ape pon, takkan jadi punya.
After that, I decided to go to Dr Hamid Arshad. This is around 2013 kalu tak silap. Sanggup tunggu turn tah pukul brape tah baru dpt jumpe die. Yang I ingat me and hubs sampai klinik die kul 8 pagi. And masa sampai tu, dah ramai rupenye hakak2 pregnant yg dah sesiap amik nombor... tah pukul brape la derg sampai. Dr Hamid, a very well known fertility doc. Die check, nothing yang mengganggu as in uterus sume ok.. No fibroid, no polips. Kirenye cantik la keadaannye. Die pn suh makan acid folic and kasi sepotong ayat Quran untuk di amalkan. Trus set next appointment, which is 3 bulan lagi . Ok I am not a very patient punya spesis.
I pon malas nak tunggu lama2. We went to a normal clinic and tell the doctor on my fertility issue. Doc tu pn referkan to his friend, which is a gynae at Columbia Asia Cheras. So, tanpa membuang masa, off we go to the hospital to set appointment. Sebab hospital baru masa tu, cepat je dpt appointment with Dr Shida. Die pn buat la segala scanning and checking and die pn mendiscover yang I ade PCOS (polycystic Ovary Syndrome). A condition where ovum tak matured due to hormon keperempuanan tak mencukupi. So when ovum tak matured, Ovum tu sume tak membesar. They just stayed in my ovary. Even I have my period every month, well ade la period but irregular. Kadang-kadang my cycle 35 days, sometimes 42 days, the longest is 63 days. Masa tu mcm perasan sgt pregnant. On day 62 I buat pregnancy test. Negative. The next day I period. FEELS LIKE !@#&^%^#&%*&.. At that point of time, I mmg rasa down sangat sangat sangat. I cried and cried and since then, ape ape news pasal people getting pregnant, konfem I nangis. I still remember, in the news btau pasal Blake Lively pregnant, I nangis gile babi. TAH PAPEEEEEE.. but I just cant help it. serius down. So, I pn stop segala treatment. Malas nak tertunggu2 lagi every month. I just remind myself, only Allah knows when we are truly ready and Allah takkan uji more than we can handle.
So idle phase ni berlaku sampai la end of 2016 when we decided, we need to get help and lets be serious about this. We cannot putus asa. We should terima what lies upon us. Stay positive. Keep on trying tak kisah la whatever it takes. Wahhh.. matured tak keputusan cmtu kan? Rase cam matured sangat time tu.. hahahahahahahahhaa.
So my aunt suggest to go to HUKM and get treatment with Prof Zainul. Sebab die pn have the same struggle and she feels that Prof Zainul is very capable. Kitorg pn pergi la register pape yg patut. Go through the same process mcm kt Columbia Asia Cheras dulu. Which is check ovum, check uterus, husband kene buat sperm test, I kene buat fallopian tube scan balik. Oooo.. talking about this fallopian tube scan. I have a very very very bad experience the first time I did this. I ingat lagi buat scan tu with a doctor at a clinic located at Jalan Raja Laut. The after effect of the scan gile dasyattttt.. I cannot get up for 2 days. Feels like ade tikus tengah dok korek2 my uterus.. sakit gileeeeeeeeeeeeeeee. So when HUKM suh I buat balik, rasa cam thats it. kite stop sampai sini je.. tanak buat dah.. tobat.. eceh... baru tadi feeling matured kan. I story kt aunt I bad experience of my 1st tube scan.. die kate die buat kt KPJ Tawakkal with Dr Fatimah. Takde rase sakit langsung. I'm a bit skeptical. Camne plak aku rase cam nak mampos, die takde rase pape.. So die pn ckp, pegi situ, serius takde rase sakit. I did went for the scan with Dr Fatimah tu. And to my surprise, sumpah takde rase sakit langsung. Trus rasa nak top up sumpah seranah kt doc clinik kt Raja Laut tu.. What de hell are u doing man???
Ok.. sambung balik treatment kt HUKM ni. fallopian tube takde sumbat ke ape.. so the problem now is memang due to the PCOS. PCOS ni takde cure and even docs pn tatau what cause it. But it can be controlled. By leading healthy lifestyle, jaga makan, jangan stress, kirenye lead a happy life la gitu and paling bagus if dpt reduce weight. Sikit reduce pn ok dah. So, cam biase doc akan kasi clomid. To simulate the ovum. Tgk if ade reaction. Alhamdulillah ade... ade la 1 ovum membesar. Doc pn kate try dulu naturally. 3 cycle la kirenye try naturally. Nothing. Takpe, lets ask the docs advise what should we do next. So doc kate bole proceed with IUI. Mase ni I dah start change my lifestyle. Petang2 after work g jog, lantak la keje siap ke tak.. Keje will not habis. Sayangilah diri anda.. gitu tagline masa ni. I joined Slim Fit season 4. The coach and the team is superb. Throughout the program, they taught us how to lead healthy lifestyle. Weight tak important. Important sebab nak win 1st place je mase tu.. hehehehehe.. So at the end of this program, we really know how to control our food intake, cmne nak workout dengan betul, about nutrition in our food and to love ourself as well as spreading the awareness to other people of the importance of taking care of yourself and feel good about yourself. Berjaya turunkan around 5kg rasenye. Memang rasa best sangat2.
So, then we did proceed with IUI. Excited gile masa ni mmg berangan trus pregnant la. But Allah knows best. Takde rezeki. Once dah period tu, doc pn tanya. Nak proceed with IUI lagi skali tak? I cakap No. Tak nak buang masa doing the same thing without knowing if my ovum is really a good ovum and if it can be fertilized naturally without any intervention. So I pn cakap nak proceed with IVF terus and Doc agreed.
Intermission... jeng jeng jengggg
Eh.. next post la ye.. penat plak menaip. Mata I plak nak juling. So before I pn maki diri sendri, I stop sini dulu ye. hahahahahha.. Nanti I sambung on this IVF in my next post.
Daaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa..
Signing Off
